Its been a while..am I not enough?

I been wanting to write a blog for sooo long but I kept on being occupied with other things. I was sitting here thinking why not today. God has been so faithful and I keep asking God I want more.. I need more. I don't completely understand my selfish desires or wants but I know I WANT it.. Then He reminded me, Am I not enough? That is such a powerful question, is HE not enough that I look into the worldly desires of needing more.. Wake up, pray a simple pray "Lord help, guide... and so on" and then go through my day like usual.. AM I missing something? Nope... (my earthly desires says) but my spiritual desires says HECK YA you're missing A LOT more... I am missing the joy, love and peace that ONLY GOD can provide.. "Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Yes! Exactly this verse, we may get full with the worldly desires and wants... but that won't be enough.. We'll need more to continue living HIS way.. Yesterday I asked my husband why is it people that don't trust God they get everything and even more.. They get "lucky" with the simple desires of the world... WHY WHY WHY? He looked at me and said... "Their end is different then our end.." umm why does he have to to be soo smart lol such a GODLY thing to say.. I tease him saying thank you Pastor... But honestly that is true.. we focus sooo much on what others have and what we don't have... we lack the understanding of what is waiting for us... I know this blog may seem pointless and ALL over the place but these are some of my thoughts throughout the week.. I hope God shows each one of ya'll that read this that IT is NOTTTT about us BUT ALL about Him.. I pray that He opens our eyes to understand HIS plan and purposes. Prayer: Lord, I thank you for these "duhhhh" moments. Lord guide us the way YOU want us to go and not the way we want to go. Father thank You for the wonderful love and presence you have showered upon my life. Help me to feel the LOVE you have for me. Jesus I ask that you show me that it is NOT about me but ALL about You. Please take over every AREAS of my life, including the darkest points of my life that no one but you know about.. Create LIGHT out of that darkness... Help me to live for YOU alone... Jesus I ask all this in Your name. Amen!

Hungry....Dry?

Dry? Hungry?

I was sitting here and thought man I haven't written in a while.. I know God was leading this thought and this song popped up.

So, we moved to San Antonio.. This was honestly in step of faith. 
I had a phone interview with couple of people in February. First interview or call was from this guy who was a recruiter. He was super nice and friendly. I then thought maybe that was just a call to see if I was interested for a job. Well then I got another call this lady said you passed the initial interview there is another interview with the hiring manager. At this point I was like no way I'll get this position but why not try.. Honestly I didn't want it but just wanted to see if it was possible to get this job. Well don't get me wrong, I wanted a job BADLY but just not this far. I proceed to pursue this job and I felt God leading me to try this job. I did exactly what the spirit told me to do. Then I got another call (from the hiring manager) she was super sweet and very nice. I made sure I lifted Christ up even in the interview because without Him I wouldn't be here. So I came downstairs after the interview and my husband goes "man it sounds like you were talking to your best friend..." I am usually really loud and ecstatic talking my best friend :) Well I talked to her on my lunch break so I was kind of rushing it but kind of just allowing God to guide the conversation. I remember praying Lord let your will be done regardless of the outcome..

Couple of nights went by and I was like No call, no e-mail.. She told me that they'll let me know Friday.. Well that passed... I was the last to interview so she felt that they'll let me know soon. She won't call but the recruiter would call. I thought well maybe not from the Lord and left it alone. Well that NIGHT itself God spoke to me in a dream... I had a dream that I called the hiring manager just to check the status of the application and she was like did they not call you? You got the position.. I remember waking up so content and told hubby that I got the job.. He just looked at me crazy. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed the job I was at.. great benefits.. some great people and just so near my house...oh and HOUR lunches : )
but it was time for a change.. It waasn't challenging AND I need to collect my LPC-intern hours.. (which I still need to look into) 

Couple of days later I got this call that I got the job and if I wanted to accept it. I WAS LIKE ehhhh wow... God is soo goood.. I don't remember all the details but I know that God is soooooo goood. I remember even worrying after the fact cause I NEVER seen the lady... I wondered if they'll even have a position here for me or was it just a mistake.. yup really doubted it.. 
Being here now I still think Lord did they make a mistake? Did they really hire me.. Lord just reminds me that its not my will but His will.. In my whole life everything was soo bitter but once I learned to trust Him without any doubt He makes ALL things beautiful in His time. 
So I went to the angel and asked him to give me the little scroll. He said to me, "Take it and eat it. It will turn your stomach sour, but 'in your mouth it will be as sweet as honey.'"-Rev 10:9

Lord allow us to be transformed into someone for You.. Let Your will be done here on earth. 

Love you Lord,

Your daughter,

Greater is He that is in me

 

All the things that is going in this world, the many disappearances, the tragic events on the news, the buildings exploding, the planes being missing and many other situations that we have no answers to... My heart is soo heavy for the families and individuals affected or even related to these situations. 

I was looking through some photos of the tragic news, the families and even the individuals that were influenced. Actually looking in their eyes and trying to empathize with them. I questioned if a counselor was there to actually sit down with them and talk them through their suicidal ideation or even understand their pain will they be better?  I know God has placed His Holy Spirit within us to decipher and to be comforted but what was lacking in these individuals?

“But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.”-John 16:13

But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.-John 14:26

My heart is sooooo heavy for these individuals- sitting here I was reminded about these verse above and especially this verse.

You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.-1 John 4:4

So whatever trails problems and even internal/external battles be encouraged that He that is IN you is greater than this world. The worldly things can be an exam, work situations, relationship situations, religious situation and etc. Whatever the world throws at you be encouraged and certain that He lives IN you and He will be able to handle anything and everything that may come your way. BUT we have to trust that His spirit will guide us and TRUST that He will carry us through it because he has already overcome this world. The Lord is the strong tower that regardless of what tries to shake us or destroy us ---He will NEVER abandon us. If you are separated from Him remember He came down to restore us and forgive us not to guilt us into death but to give us eternal life.

Be a blessing for His Kingdom and Be Blessed,

Liz

Unworthy

Wow---just really listen to the words for this song....

Today I was driving to work with some upsetting news (one step forward 10 back?)
There was a message on the radio.. To sum it up the message was about how God works on the
"unworthy" people for HIS glory. We can say that we have this.. and that.. but if He can't use those things for His glory then it can all be taken away from us. The minister expressed how God makes sure He works on the unworthy because people will actually say it is GOD and nothing else.

"Praise You in this storm.."

Praise You in This Storm

പ്രിസേ യു ഇന് ദിസ്‌ സ്റ്റൊർമ്





These couple of weeks have been very difficult for me physically, mentally and emotionally. I remember God reminding me of this song above (Praise You in this storm)  EVERY TIME I was feeling uneasy or even when I was stressed about certain situations I would randomly start sing this song. Not just one instance but MANY MANY instances.

Today as I was driving back to work from lunch, God reminded me to write in my journal. I usually write in this journal for prayer requests and major events... I call it my prayer diary... I asked Him what I should write about?? He reminded me of a previous event when I was dropping off a friend from school at these apartments and even worked on projects at her apartment. I remembered telling God, "I wish I lived in these apartments..." Keep in mind this was the period of my life my parents would NEVER let me sleep over ANYWHERE let alone have my own place?? FORGET IT!! Well I currently live in the SAME apartments that I "wished" to live in some day... God reminded me that even if this event isn't "big" or a "prayer" to write it in my journal and share it with the world... (so here I am:)

He reminded me of these verses:"Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart."-Psalm 37:4 and "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."-Matthew 7:7

I always wondered if I delighted in Him won't he fulfill all my desires... NOPE if these desires truly DELIGHT in him... or I can even go in deeper to say if it GLORIFIES HIM then those desires will be fulfilled. I prayed for sooo many things and I questioned this verse.. God if this is truly a desire of my heart why didn't I? or why did this happen..? Will the answer is simple... Was it to glorify myself or others or to glorify GOD....

I also wondered about the ASK, SEEK and KNOCK principle... What was that all about? Ask and it WILL be given... SEEK and you WILL find; Knock and it WILL be opened??? Well if you keep reading it talks about the Father providing for His children... I connect this principle to Matthew 6:33 "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." First needs to understand what HIS will and HIS plan is then everything else will align.. I will get my hearts desires BECAUSE my desires align with HIS desires... How great.. right?? Well that's tricky because we are human and we have a sinful nature to look at this.. we=me... I looked at things like God why don't you just do it.. I know you can and you are able to.. so why don't you just... Well today God reminded me that it doesn't work the way "I" want it to work but rather if I align with the plan, vision and the purpose of God for HIS glory rather than my own I will be much more at peace with the situation... Man this is a great conviction to have.. Thank you Lord for this realization, understanding and CONVICTION..

MAY GOD BE THE GLORY IN EVERYTHING WE DO...

"All for His Kingdom"

ഓൾ ഫോര് ോഡ്സ് ിങ്ങ്ദൊം

(Check out the song above and below: both of these songs has ministered to my soul these past couple of days.."

find you on my knees

Its been a while since I wrote a post! Through this "break" I got married to my wonderful husband, so now a pastors wife! I know very unusual to hear that from me... I promised myself I will never marry a pastor but boy God has a different plan and purpose for me. That story to come in later posts when I have more time...

Today as I sit at work I think back on His love and grace. We get soooo BUSY focusing on the things that are around us but we lack the focus on the big picture. That HE CONTROLS those things that are around us. I was listening to the song above and thought in those brokeness HE was the only one that never left me. Every one around us can fade and create bubbles in the relationship but NOT Him.. He continues the relationship even when we drift away from Him. I love to find him on my knees because thats when the hope, pain and my heart needs Him the most. When we are sooo happy in life and everything is content we don't value His love and grace.

Jeremiah 31:2-3 Thus says the LORD:”The people who survived the sword found grace in the wilderness; when Israel sought for rest, the LORD appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.

This verse provides amazing understanding of His love regardless of us drifting away...
I pray God talks to your heart and guides you to understanding that His way is better than our way and even if we drift away from His plan he will ALWAYS be faithful and never leave us to look for Him.
Get on your knees and you will find Him even in the desert place.

God bless you,

Road Blocks...

Video of the Post:)

Hello all,
Today was very interesting and felt the need to share this..

It was mother and daughter day-soo shopping.. shopping and more shopping..We actually went to another city because we had to do some errands... We were on our way back but took a short cut (or what I thought was a short cut) as we were driving I saw a sign that said road ahead closed.. Well I kept driving and I completely ignored that sign. Then we hit the road block that said "Road Closed" and I was soo upset and thought only if we could bypass the sign... Took a turn to a residential area thinking I can go around the road and end up on the other side.. Well drove and drove circled around the whole residential area and we just ended up in either a dead end or a road closed sign.. At this point I didn't fill the gas tank so it was close to empty so I was upset that this happened. Well we kept driving thinking there had to be an opening somewhere.. Circled around for good 30 minutes. we literally got lost because all the houses started looking the same. Finally we asked for directions and they told us a way out and we ended up on the same road we came from and went straight back to where we ended up and went the route we accurately knew.


Why am I saying all this you ask? Well this is exactly how my life can be.. my stubborn personality lead to many different career changes and difficult road closed signs in my life that I ignored.. Even God gave me those warning signs before the actually road closed but I bypassed it and once He literally placed something blocking me to "my desires and destination" I still traveled aimlessly around for goood while trying to figure out my own desires and ignored what God was doing for me and through me.. What He wanted me to be I was completely ignoring.. But there came a day when I didn't have any choice to be taught what He really wanted me to do.. Who HE was making me to be.. I need to stop and listen to those warning signs before the road block sign that may cause danger or many difficult situations.. Listen to Him for He knows your destination and we don't have to try.. For HE HOLDS YOUR FUTURE :)

May God show you MANY many signs and may you UNDERSTAND those signs before things cause you to fall.. Trust in HIM.. He has everything planned for you for your good.. Not to harm you.. To give you a good future. to be successful..for your family.. your friends.. & importantly HIS KINGDOM.. Jeremiah 29:11