Its been a while..am I not enough?

I been wanting to write a blog for sooo long but I kept on being occupied with other things. I was sitting here thinking why not today. God has been so faithful and I keep asking God I want more.. I need more. I don't completely understand my selfish desires or wants but I know I WANT it.. Then He reminded me, Am I not enough? That is such a powerful question, is HE not enough that I look into the worldly desires of needing more.. Wake up, pray a simple pray "Lord help, guide... and so on" and then go through my day like usual.. AM I missing something? Nope... (my earthly desires says) but my spiritual desires says HECK YA you're missing A LOT more... I am missing the joy, love and peace that ONLY GOD can provide.. "Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Yes! Exactly this verse, we may get full with the worldly desires and wants... but that won't be enough.. We'll need more to continue living HIS way.. Yesterday I asked my husband why is it people that don't trust God they get everything and even more.. They get "lucky" with the simple desires of the world... WHY WHY WHY? He looked at me and said... "Their end is different then our end.." umm why does he have to to be soo smart lol such a GODLY thing to say.. I tease him saying thank you Pastor... But honestly that is true.. we focus sooo much on what others have and what we don't have... we lack the understanding of what is waiting for us... I know this blog may seem pointless and ALL over the place but these are some of my thoughts throughout the week.. I hope God shows each one of ya'll that read this that IT is NOTTTT about us BUT ALL about Him.. I pray that He opens our eyes to understand HIS plan and purposes. Prayer: Lord, I thank you for these "duhhhh" moments. Lord guide us the way YOU want us to go and not the way we want to go. Father thank You for the wonderful love and presence you have showered upon my life. Help me to feel the LOVE you have for me. Jesus I ask that you show me that it is NOT about me but ALL about You. Please take over every AREAS of my life, including the darkest points of my life that no one but you know about.. Create LIGHT out of that darkness... Help me to live for YOU alone... Jesus I ask all this in Your name. Amen!

Hungry....Dry?

Dry? Hungry?

I was sitting here and thought man I haven't written in a while.. I know God was leading this thought and this song popped up.

So, we moved to San Antonio.. This was honestly in step of faith. 
I had a phone interview with couple of people in February. First interview or call was from this guy who was a recruiter. He was super nice and friendly. I then thought maybe that was just a call to see if I was interested for a job. Well then I got another call this lady said you passed the initial interview there is another interview with the hiring manager. At this point I was like no way I'll get this position but why not try.. Honestly I didn't want it but just wanted to see if it was possible to get this job. Well don't get me wrong, I wanted a job BADLY but just not this far. I proceed to pursue this job and I felt God leading me to try this job. I did exactly what the spirit told me to do. Then I got another call (from the hiring manager) she was super sweet and very nice. I made sure I lifted Christ up even in the interview because without Him I wouldn't be here. So I came downstairs after the interview and my husband goes "man it sounds like you were talking to your best friend..." I am usually really loud and ecstatic talking my best friend :) Well I talked to her on my lunch break so I was kind of rushing it but kind of just allowing God to guide the conversation. I remember praying Lord let your will be done regardless of the outcome..

Couple of nights went by and I was like No call, no e-mail.. She told me that they'll let me know Friday.. Well that passed... I was the last to interview so she felt that they'll let me know soon. She won't call but the recruiter would call. I thought well maybe not from the Lord and left it alone. Well that NIGHT itself God spoke to me in a dream... I had a dream that I called the hiring manager just to check the status of the application and she was like did they not call you? You got the position.. I remember waking up so content and told hubby that I got the job.. He just looked at me crazy. Don't get me wrong I enjoyed the job I was at.. great benefits.. some great people and just so near my house...oh and HOUR lunches : )
but it was time for a change.. It waasn't challenging AND I need to collect my LPC-intern hours.. (which I still need to look into) 

Couple of days later I got this call that I got the job and if I wanted to accept it. I WAS LIKE ehhhh wow... God is soo goood.. I don't remember all the details but I know that God is soooooo goood. I remember even worrying after the fact cause I NEVER seen the lady... I wondered if they'll even have a position here for me or was it just a mistake.. yup really doubted it.. 
Being here now I still think Lord did they make a mistake? Did they really hire me.. Lord just reminds me that its not my will but His will.. In my whole life everything was soo bitter but once I learned to trust Him without any doubt He makes ALL things beautiful in His time. 
So I went to the angel and asked him to give me the little scroll. He said to me, "Take it and eat it. It will turn your stomach sour, but 'in your mouth it will be as sweet as honey.'"-Rev 10:9

Lord allow us to be transformed into someone for You.. Let Your will be done here on earth. 

Love you Lord,

Your daughter,

Greater is He that is in me

 

All the things that is going in this world, the many disappearances, the tragic events on the news, the buildings exploding, the planes being missing and many other situations that we have no answers to... My heart is soo heavy for the families and individuals affected or even related to these situations. 

I was looking through some photos of the tragic news, the families and even the individuals that were influenced. Actually looking in their eyes and trying to empathize with them. I questioned if a counselor was there to actually sit down with them and talk them through their suicidal ideation or even understand their pain will they be better?  I know God has placed His Holy Spirit within us to decipher and to be comforted but what was lacking in these individuals?

“But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all the truth. He will not speak on his own; he will speak only what he hears, and he will tell you what is yet to come.”-John 16:13

But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.-John 14:26

My heart is sooooo heavy for these individuals- sitting here I was reminded about these verse above and especially this verse.

You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world.-1 John 4:4

So whatever trails problems and even internal/external battles be encouraged that He that is IN you is greater than this world. The worldly things can be an exam, work situations, relationship situations, religious situation and etc. Whatever the world throws at you be encouraged and certain that He lives IN you and He will be able to handle anything and everything that may come your way. BUT we have to trust that His spirit will guide us and TRUST that He will carry us through it because he has already overcome this world. The Lord is the strong tower that regardless of what tries to shake us or destroy us ---He will NEVER abandon us. If you are separated from Him remember He came down to restore us and forgive us not to guilt us into death but to give us eternal life.

Be a blessing for His Kingdom and Be Blessed,

Liz

Unworthy

Wow---just really listen to the words for this song....

Today I was driving to work with some upsetting news (one step forward 10 back?)
There was a message on the radio.. To sum it up the message was about how God works on the
"unworthy" people for HIS glory. We can say that we have this.. and that.. but if He can't use those things for His glory then it can all be taken away from us. The minister expressed how God makes sure He works on the unworthy because people will actually say it is GOD and nothing else.

"Praise You in this storm.."

Praise You in This Storm

പ്രിസേ യു ഇന് ദിസ്‌ സ്റ്റൊർമ്





These couple of weeks have been very difficult for me physically, mentally and emotionally. I remember God reminding me of this song above (Praise You in this storm)  EVERY TIME I was feeling uneasy or even when I was stressed about certain situations I would randomly start sing this song. Not just one instance but MANY MANY instances.

Today as I was driving back to work from lunch, God reminded me to write in my journal. I usually write in this journal for prayer requests and major events... I call it my prayer diary... I asked Him what I should write about?? He reminded me of a previous event when I was dropping off a friend from school at these apartments and even worked on projects at her apartment. I remembered telling God, "I wish I lived in these apartments..." Keep in mind this was the period of my life my parents would NEVER let me sleep over ANYWHERE let alone have my own place?? FORGET IT!! Well I currently live in the SAME apartments that I "wished" to live in some day... God reminded me that even if this event isn't "big" or a "prayer" to write it in my journal and share it with the world... (so here I am:)

He reminded me of these verses:"Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart."-Psalm 37:4 and "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."-Matthew 7:7

I always wondered if I delighted in Him won't he fulfill all my desires... NOPE if these desires truly DELIGHT in him... or I can even go in deeper to say if it GLORIFIES HIM then those desires will be fulfilled. I prayed for sooo many things and I questioned this verse.. God if this is truly a desire of my heart why didn't I? or why did this happen..? Will the answer is simple... Was it to glorify myself or others or to glorify GOD....

I also wondered about the ASK, SEEK and KNOCK principle... What was that all about? Ask and it WILL be given... SEEK and you WILL find; Knock and it WILL be opened??? Well if you keep reading it talks about the Father providing for His children... I connect this principle to Matthew 6:33 "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." First needs to understand what HIS will and HIS plan is then everything else will align.. I will get my hearts desires BECAUSE my desires align with HIS desires... How great.. right?? Well that's tricky because we are human and we have a sinful nature to look at this.. we=me... I looked at things like God why don't you just do it.. I know you can and you are able to.. so why don't you just... Well today God reminded me that it doesn't work the way "I" want it to work but rather if I align with the plan, vision and the purpose of God for HIS glory rather than my own I will be much more at peace with the situation... Man this is a great conviction to have.. Thank you Lord for this realization, understanding and CONVICTION..

MAY GOD BE THE GLORY IN EVERYTHING WE DO...

"All for His Kingdom"

ഓൾ ഫോര് ോഡ്സ് ിങ്ങ്ദൊം

(Check out the song above and below: both of these songs has ministered to my soul these past couple of days.."

find you on my knees

Its been a while since I wrote a post! Through this "break" I got married to my wonderful husband, so now a pastors wife! I know very unusual to hear that from me... I promised myself I will never marry a pastor but boy God has a different plan and purpose for me. That story to come in later posts when I have more time...

Today as I sit at work I think back on His love and grace. We get soooo BUSY focusing on the things that are around us but we lack the focus on the big picture. That HE CONTROLS those things that are around us. I was listening to the song above and thought in those brokeness HE was the only one that never left me. Every one around us can fade and create bubbles in the relationship but NOT Him.. He continues the relationship even when we drift away from Him. I love to find him on my knees because thats when the hope, pain and my heart needs Him the most. When we are sooo happy in life and everything is content we don't value His love and grace.

Jeremiah 31:2-3 Thus says the LORD:”The people who survived the sword found grace in the wilderness; when Israel sought for rest, the LORD appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.

This verse provides amazing understanding of His love regardless of us drifting away...
I pray God talks to your heart and guides you to understanding that His way is better than our way and even if we drift away from His plan he will ALWAYS be faithful and never leave us to look for Him.
Get on your knees and you will find Him even in the desert place.

God bless you,

Road Blocks...

Video of the Post:)

Hello all,
Today was very interesting and felt the need to share this..

It was mother and daughter day-soo shopping.. shopping and more shopping..We actually went to another city because we had to do some errands... We were on our way back but took a short cut (or what I thought was a short cut) as we were driving I saw a sign that said road ahead closed.. Well I kept driving and I completely ignored that sign. Then we hit the road block that said "Road Closed" and I was soo upset and thought only if we could bypass the sign... Took a turn to a residential area thinking I can go around the road and end up on the other side.. Well drove and drove circled around the whole residential area and we just ended up in either a dead end or a road closed sign.. At this point I didn't fill the gas tank so it was close to empty so I was upset that this happened. Well we kept driving thinking there had to be an opening somewhere.. Circled around for good 30 minutes. we literally got lost because all the houses started looking the same. Finally we asked for directions and they told us a way out and we ended up on the same road we came from and went straight back to where we ended up and went the route we accurately knew.


Why am I saying all this you ask? Well this is exactly how my life can be.. my stubborn personality lead to many different career changes and difficult road closed signs in my life that I ignored.. Even God gave me those warning signs before the actually road closed but I bypassed it and once He literally placed something blocking me to "my desires and destination" I still traveled aimlessly around for goood while trying to figure out my own desires and ignored what God was doing for me and through me.. What He wanted me to be I was completely ignoring.. But there came a day when I didn't have any choice to be taught what He really wanted me to do.. Who HE was making me to be.. I need to stop and listen to those warning signs before the road block sign that may cause danger or many difficult situations.. Listen to Him for He knows your destination and we don't have to try.. For HE HOLDS YOUR FUTURE :)

May God show you MANY many signs and may you UNDERSTAND those signs before things cause you to fall.. Trust in HIM.. He has everything planned for you for your good.. Not to harm you.. To give you a good future. to be successful..for your family.. your friends.. & importantly HIS KINGDOM.. Jeremiah 29:11

It was Sunday...

Mark 16:2-6

New Living Translation (NLT)

² Very early on Sunday morning,^[a] just at sunrise, they went to the tomb. ³ On the way they were asking each other, “Who will roll away the stone for us from the entrance to the tomb?” ⁴But as they arrived, they looked up and saw that the stone, which was very large, had already been rolled aside.

 ⁵ When they entered the tomb, they saw a young man clothed in a white robe sitting on the right side. The women were shocked, ⁶ but the angel said, “Don’t be alarmed. You are looking for Jesus of Nazareth,^[b] who was crucified. He isn’t here! He is risen from the dead! Look, this is where they laid his body.

As I was reading this tonight.. I came across so many emotions and points that I honestly felt like blogging and sharing.. Before reading this blog.. Please read the reference above.. It will give you my insight to my madness ;) 

The ladies approached the tomb with great sorrow-"who will roll away the stone??" 

(The stone in today's language can mean our sadness, our pain, our weakness, our guilt, our worries, our sin, our wickedness, our wants, our problems, our situations... )

Recalling back, it wasn't just an ordinary morning, this was a Sunday morning. When you leave your worries, sadness, guilt, sin, wickedness and walk boldly into your destination.. into the sanctuary..into the tomb.. walking BOLDLY to see the unseen.. No tellin' who will be standing there to roll away the stone into the solution to the problem... to wash you clean from your sins, to give you a life of purity, a life of everything in your wildest dreams.. to give you a future... to give you destination that's ordained by our Creator.. No tellin' when we let Jesus roll away the stone-He was there.. He laid there in the sin, guilt, pain, wickedness.. He laid right there but you know what.. He has risen from all that to create a better place for us.. That is why.. That is why.. I can sit here and feel good about myself.. and feel complete.. Because He laid there... but He has also RISEN from there.. amen? 

and..It was Friday...

"at noon, darkness fell across the whole land until three o clock." Mark 15: 33
"and the curtain in the sanctuary of the Temple was torn in two from top to bottom. " Mark 15:38
"This all happened on Friday, the day of preparation. the day before the Sabbath. As evening approached.."-Mark 15: 42 


 Sitting here reading on a Friday evening, and understanding the amount of suffering my Father faced during a Friday just like today.. It amazes me.. Will I be there at the foot of the cross on a Friday..? will I sit there and feel His amazing love as He in front of my eyes died..? From the distractions of today's society if the generation had all the things that we have during the death of Jesus.... will you be at home.. in your bed watching shows that are degrading rather than watching the death of our Lord and Savior? Laying here in bed thinking of if I would be there is sick.. its pretty sad.. I'm unworthy to be at the foot of the cross but laying here not even thinking of what my Father has done for me.. Being tempted to watch t.v. than to read the word.. pretty sad on my behalf.. Thank God for a Father that regardless of our mistakes-without any judgement or any accusations to me.. Recalling that darkness fell across the whole land until three... Man at 12(noon) it's pretty sunny.. and we'll only feel darkness when it rains.. But it goes and comes with sun shining.. The whole land was dark till three.. Amazing.. He welcomes me again and again to sit at the foot of the cross to understand the cleansing of the cross.. to understand the depth of the cross.. to understand the reason for the cross.. just to understand who He is and who I'm NOT.. Just like the curtains were tore... Inside I should be torn.. He tore the boundary of the cross.. He tore it so I can come boldly, without any hesitation and come sit at the cross.. Even for a second.. Just to feel the love that He had for me when He picked up the cross for me.. What amazing love is this Father? that regardless of our busy schedule You continue to overwhelm us with Your constant invitation to the cross.. regardless if it's Friday, Saturday.. Monday whatever it is... It's amazing...That love He has for us.. constant.. unfailing.. unconditional.. it is amazing.. Thank You Father for thinking of me...


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Whatever happens, happens with His knowledge...

When we think of life, we think.. What will happen today.. or tmrw.. or the next day.. 

I don't know about you but I can only handle one day at a time.. But our God.. He can handle days, months, years and even decades at a time... Today I was thinking about all the craziness that's going on.. not only in my life but my family.. my friends.. They go through soo much mentally and physically-I just wish sometimes they can understand that nothing is worth it.. Sometimes I wish I was strong in faith that when going through adversities I can stand firm on His word.. But yeah I find myself questioning His knowledge and I fall many times.. So where can we get the power to stand firm? How do we stay focused on not worrying? Right when things get rough.. Right when you feel satan's push.. Push the prayer.. Push the power of prayer.. Give the struggle, situation or storm to him because He knows before it happens.. He has such a powerful peace to give you... He has such amazing wisdom to give you.. He has ALL the answers... Praise God that He loves me unconditionally to give me this peace and power.. I praise You in the storm.. For He makes ALL things beautiful... from ooglllay to beautiful JUST IN TIME>>>>:) Love the song below it relates sooo welll with this post ;) 

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Spirit Within

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John 14-Trinity{whole chapter---)
John 15-Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me.."




Today I randomly(God planted) thought of trinity{Father, Son and The Holy Spirit) How is it possible that ALL three can be one... I even had a discussion with my dad and we debated for some time.. --(God was strongly in the conversation that I literally felt Him standing next to me smiling at my crazy questions and thoughts.)-- OUR DISCUSSION: When multiple times it clearly mentions "Father" or even I will speak to God on your behalf--1 John 2:1... or who was Jesus speaking to as he was fasting for 40 days?--Matthew 4:2 or who did he ask to take this cup, yet not my will--Luke 22:42..? As we discussed this... my dad said read John 14-16... 


I started reading.. reading out loud and this discussion grew more and more intense but randomly a gentle spirit within me and within my papa changed to laughter.. It was impossible to stop laughing.. Nothing was really funny but the passion about the topic.. But God definitely intervened and said daughter you will never understand this... You will only understand when you see me.. It is NOT something you can back up with theories or research.. I am not a project that you can figure out.. I am, Who I am... Man just the way in the simplicity of life... stops you from living life and question something and speak to you in such a drastic way is beyond me.. We try to figure out answers to the questions of the world and life.. which is all really good.. But when we try to figure out God it will be IMPOSSIBLE.. because it only POSSIBLE through HIM and IN Him.. **confusion? yup it will be... but the only hope we have is that God was, God is and God will always be in control of our situations, our earthquakes, our financial situation, our relationships, our family, our EVERYTHING...was IN His hands, is IN His hands, will always be IN His hands.. 
So as we wait to figure out this mysterious answer to these questions.. the song above speaks soo much on what we should do as we wait....--patiently wait...move ahead bold and confident...I will worship.. Faithfully...


Praising Him for that!! Thank you God for showing yourself in ways that we can never control.. Thank you for being our God in every area... If situations were in my hands there will be no chance for me Father.. But since its IN Your hands.. I can sleep, I can worship...I can pray..I can sing, I can eat.. I can go to work/school, I can sit, I can watch, I can.. I can... I can... without worrying.. without struggling.. Alpha Omega... Amazing Father:) 

Tick Tick-Times Ticking

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Hello All,
So recalling the post before this where I was venting.... 

When things get low, why does it get lower? I have to push fwd. I have to push fwd. Satan has no victory in my life, my future. Lord I trust you to get me through all this.. Help me t fight this.. fight till I die for You appacha.. Mold me.. Make me.. Grow me.. I'm soo weak Jesus! I need your guidance and strength to overcome this difficult moment in my life. Education isn't going the way you want.. Relationships not going the way you want.. Financial not going the way you want.. Family not going the way you want... Just creates a way for His way to take importance.. Thank God not everything goes our way.. John 14:6 **Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."-

Well... I have some wonderful news... Let me not get ahead of myself.

During that point when I wrote everything above...

It was because a big battle was placed on me... Family situations were just overwhelming me..

It seemed like nothing was working for my good.. I struggled with understanding Gods will for this storm and why things were the way it was. I even found myself doubting the placements in my life. Satan planted so many doubts, fears, worries of not getting accepted to anything.. Just being stuck forever.. Well.. This was all after church last Sunday, keep in mind that I'm pending getting approved for MS program in counseling and development..The interview was done.. so just three weeks of fasting and prayers for Gods ultimate will in my life to take hold. (Flash back: This interview was intense... It consisted of a group interview, individual interview and an essay.. I know many individuals were more qualified for acceptance for this program.. Individuals that held previous MS degrees.. ) Now waiting for something is never a good thing until its received. So Monday rolled around and I was more discouraged and many negative thoughts were present in my head.. I didn't even think God would  love me after thinking many of these thoughts.. Continued to pray and keep up the faith that ALL things are possible through Him and nothing is done on my own merit.. Continued to have that faith of a mustard seed-even if it was soo small- Tuesday came around.. I heard a voice that said go online to application status and see what I have done for you... Went to the graduate school application status area... It stated "accepted on October 18,2011" A WEEK BEFORE.. A WHOLE WEEK BEFORE.. I was going through the storm and doubting my Father but He gave me an answer a WEEK in advance... Then I received my acceptance letter in the mail on Wednesday.. Even when I fell.. He was there holding me up and letting me know He's not done with me.. I'm beyond blessed to serve a God that is alive and working on my behalf.. "Jeremiah 29:11 seemed to re-play in my head over and over.. For He knows the plans for you.. Plans to give you a good future.. Plans NOT to harm you.. He is such a loving God.. He will never disappoint regardless if others around you have disappointed.. I find myself constantly going astray but that love..The LOVE of my Father just brings me back to Him.. Don't doubt Him.. He's still working on your behalf.. He's MORE than able to complete what He has in store for YOU for HIS glory.. 

May you fall into His arms of Love and continue to stay there-Feel His power all in your life even when you don't see the solution in front of you.. He already provided the answer... Just waiting for it to play out in your life. 

Break Down or Break Through?

When things get low, why does it get lower? I have to push fwd. I have to push fwd. Satan has no victory in my life, my future. Lord I trust you to get me through all this.. Help me t fight this.. fight till I die for You appacha.. Mold me.. Make me.. Grow me.. I'm soo weak Jesus! I need your guidance and strength to overcome this difficult moment in my life. Education isn't going the way you want.. Relationships not going the way you want.. Financial not going the way you want.. Family not going the way you want... Just creates a way for His way to take importance.. Thank God not everything goes our way.. John 14:6 **Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."-

Yes, those are the words I literally wrote down today when I was facing some circumstances in my life that I really felt as if Why God.. Yup admit I'm human.. I'm flesh.. I doubt situations.. but you know what? In that breakdown.. I received a breakthrough.. Jesus Your Love is soooo amazing.. Your compassion, Your devotion regardless of the sins, regardless of our thoughts, regardless of our doubts.. Your still continue to Love me.. You are graceful, faithful and Your unconditional love continues forever.. 

Thank You For being my father.. 

Yours Truly, 

Your unworthy daughter,

Head Count

"Indeed, the very hairs on your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows"-Luke 12:7
And even the very hairs on your head are all numbered."Matthew 10:30




So as I was putting my hair up I had a lot of strands of hair that was falling out of my head.. Little pieces and strands... All of the sudden I felt God speaking to me.. "I know the very hairs on your head... I know the number.. Can you tell me the number?" Well I started counted the hairs that I found on my bed then I ran across more.. and more.. Looking outside...in... if someone saw this.. saw me counting my strands of hair.. They would really think.. "Liz you are really LOOSING it" Then I started appreciating the little things.. He knows the very hair on your head.. He knows the number.. I challenge you to count the strands you see falling off your head everyday.. Keep a record of it.. Is it even worth it you ask? Well to God YOU are worth it.. Your WORTH even more..  The videos are amazing way to imagine His love.. The second song "The Promise" really touched me in the sense.. He knows.. He knows the hair on your head.. He knows the tears you cry.. He KNOWS.. Don't underestimate His Love for you.. His passion for you.. His grace.. His faithfulness.. He knows, understands and is with you each and every step of the way.. Don't give up hope.. But allow Him to count the hairs on your head.. but stay faithful to Him through each situation, struggles, problems.. He hasn't given up on you.. Don't give up on Him... 

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Dreams

¹⁶ “I cannot do it,” Joseph replied to Pharaoh, “but God will give Pharaoh the answer he desires.”-Genesis 41:16


It's amazing to understand that each dream means something, God designed it and planted it within us for a particular reason or purpose.  If we choose to accept it that's completely up to us. Last night I had a small dream-vision and I was barely falling asleep.. It was vague so I was like was this God or was this my mind.. One thing about God.. When things are from Him... He will make it known.. So this dream-vision was for a nanosecond.. It was a door opening but the what was behind the door was unknown and unseen. I suddenly had the urge to talk to God about it and wonder is it a new job, prayers to our answers... questioning Him in the sense try to understand such a small vision. But just like in the story with Joseph, it may be a small vision or dream but how its interrupted and lived is huge. Amen!!


Song of the Day: "Where You Go I Go"
Where you I go.. Where you stay I'll stay..Where you pray I pray..
Jesus would only move when you felt you lead..How can I go without you when every move Jesus made was in surrender
 -Wow thats powerful.. Jesus surrendered his steps, his visions, his dreams, his plans, his education, his friends, his relationships, his EVERYTHING to the heart of God's plan.. I feel sooo stubborn at times because I find myself wondering in my own plans and dreams that I lack the knowledge that HE was the one who created these moments and for His Glory.. NOT our own.. 
I challenge you to step out--I challenge you to follow--I challenge you to go where He wants you to go.. Man what a difference our life would make.. Amen!  

Dry Places In Your Life

It's amazing to find songs that relate to your life and situation.. But this song hits the spot-from personal life and the life I see within others..
Today was very testing day for me.. Testing in the sense I really had to sit back and evaluate people and situations. Its amazing how God shows us His love through others. This generation is struggling and in the dry place that they have no motivation to get back up, we as adults need to step up and show them through those dry areas in life he will provide living water that we will NEVER thirst again..
 "I will bring praise.. no weapons formed against me shall remain.." Word of God reminds us
over and over trials are present to get us closer to our destiny or even grow others to their destiny. We
face many things but when we let those things build others up is what truly matters.

Matthew 23:27-28 Cleaning the inside of the cup and the outside will automatically be cleaned.. That is very hard for me to grasp because of how difficult it is for me to clean the inside of myself.. I look at the world for soo much comfort and understand but I neglect the fact that the inside needs to be cleaned so the outside can show the world the love of Christ. The inside should be all of what I want to show the world, God's love, his grace and forgiveness needs to all take root inside first and foremost and then the outside will show what the inside is experiencing. I really have this broken-ness for this generation.. It kills me to see them hurting inside that slowly is portrayed outward.. They are hurting with hurtful words of others, peer pressure, no passion to do things and many negative things.. I wish they can see and sense this LOVE, GRACE and Forgiveness that God has for them so they can change into a generation that seeks after the LOVE of Christ rather than Love of the world.. 

Hello ALL :) no title: Just my thoughts, babble and reflection

Hey ya'll,
Well another day of God created blessings, well today I am happy to say.. My best friend
Jubzy is graduating tmrw.. I AM SOOO FREAKING HAPPY at the same time SAD because
I won't be able to be there for her day :(. But God only knows how proud and amazed I am in the WOMAN she has become. Nooo joke yall she truly is my role model. Throughout these years I seen her so devoted to her passion even if she states other wise... I know the truth.. I don't have enough words to describe the love I have for her and how she changed me as a person. When she first went to Houston i rmbr
her getting stuck in the middle of the boonies and I was on the phone with her. OHH BOY i was scared, even if I was trying to calm her down it turned out to be the opposite. I never wanted her to leave but I know that this was God's divine will and no matter what IT WILL HAPPEN. Jubzy has been through a lot, I know maybe 1/2 of the full but one thing I keep recalling.. God makes everything beautiful in HIS time.. and guys not saying shes hurt or oooogallay---complete opposite she is beautiful inside and out.. But saying that all the nasty, dirty, ugly, awlful words*insert here* things she had to bare to come to this beautiful day which is her graduation day.
When I graduated I recalled all the moments i shared with people around me and rmbred her always calming me down. She was my balance to days when I feel cluttered(if you knew me then you would understand that was most days) but over everything around me I felt peace after talking to her. Graduation wasn't just about my accomplishments but people around me and their accomplishments as well. She keeps saying why am I thanking her during my graduation.. well it was because you deserved the most thank well aside from God of course.
Well Juby, I cant be there (OHHH I WISH I CUD BE,) but i want you to know I am imagining you walking across the stage with your degree that u WORKED HARD FOR !! and almost tripping hehe(had to through that in there) but I'm there praising God and loving Him for the beautiful WOMAN you become in Him.
He makes ALL things beautiful in His time.. This is your day-enjoy it.. taste it, smell it, love it... cause it'll prolly only last 10 minutes and then you'll be like me.. old, grey, and at home looking to go to grad school as SOOON AS POSSIBLE lol ;)
i love u and im not sure if you or anyone for that matter understood my rambling.. This is how i feel... now i gotta delete it ok thanks.. hehhe jk
love u my jubzzzzyy kutta ;)

HOW HE LOVES ME :)

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are, And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If His grace is an ocean, we?re all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don?t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way?

Amen! Wow how he loves us... This song has really been on my mind... How He loves us.. Regardless of the situation-rough or not.. He still loves us and holds us in His arms for us to be surrounded by His love and glory. I was talking to this co-worker and introduced him to this song.. He fell IN LOVE!
If you asked me a month ago about Jesus I'll brush it off but the love He has given me this past month and the OVERWHELMING love... I can't keep silent..

Beautiful Exchange...

This song wow! it spoke to my friend and I drasically at this meeting we went to Thursday night.
The words are sooo powerful!
Taken from youtube.com/watch?v=6_89ysD9MME
You were near
Though I was distant
Disillusioned I was
Lost and insecure
Still mercy fought
For my attention
You were waiting at the door
Then I let you in
Trading your life
For my offenses
For my redemption
You carried all the blame
Breaking the curse
Of our condition
Perfection took our place
Chorus:
When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange
My burden erased
My life forgiven
There is nothing that could take this love away
And my only desire and sole ambition
Is to love you just the same
Chorus:
When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange
When only love could break these chains
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange

Bridge:
Holy are you God
Holy is your name
With everything I’ve got
My heart will sing how I love you

Relationships

This word relationship is a very complex thing to explain better yet even feel. I was recalling in my head what this word really means to me with the certain individuals in my life to certain individuals that will come in my life. Relationship we have for our family for our friends and even for people we encounter each and every day... It's surprising to learn how that word can mean sooo many meanings to different individuals.
As I was reading I came across wait on the lord and you will rise like eagles.. I'm one of those I want the answers now so patiences is really hard for me to do. In this case of wanting a relationship that only God destined for me to have is very difficult for me to just wait. Yes, we may feel loney or unappreciated but we can only relay on the strength of God to get us through these negative emotions to some positive ones.
I also came to a blog that talked about relationships. The point of that blog was stop focusing on the "I want" relationships but rather the "God wants" relationships. This blog stated that once we have that relationship with God that fulfills us why do we need the closeness with anyone else. Which is sooo true, but i still think God i want someone that I can talk to about my day and talk about God to. Well He created Friends... Family.. this was my struggle daily.. But I'm thinking more intimately.. God says My time is not your time.. so wait and get fulfilled by me then everything else will line up. Amen.. We rush things and when we get it we wonder why we have it.. God makes us wait for us to appreciate it more once it's here.
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

I commit all my ways to You oh Lord.. The way He talks to us is unseen..