Wow---just really listen to the words for this song....
Today I was driving to work with some upsetting news (one step forward 10 back?)
There was a message on the radio.. To sum it up the message was about how God works on the
"unworthy" people for HIS glory. We can say that we have this.. and that.. but if He can't use those things for His glory then it can all be taken away from us. The minister expressed how God makes sure He works on the unworthy because people will actually say it is GOD and nothing else.
These couple of weeks have been very difficult for me physically, mentally and emotionally. I remember God reminding me of this song above (Praise You in this storm) EVERY TIME I was feeling uneasy or even when I was stressed about certain situations I would randomly start sing this song. Not just one instance but MANY MANY instances.
Today as I was driving back to work from lunch, God reminded me to write in my journal. I usually write in this journal for prayer requests and major events... I call it my prayer diary... I asked Him what I should write about?? He reminded me of a previous event when I was dropping off a friend from school at these apartments and even worked on projects at her apartment. I remembered telling God, "I wish I lived in these apartments..." Keep in mind this was the period of my life my parents would NEVER let me sleep over ANYWHERE let alone have my own place?? FORGET IT!! Well I currently live in the SAME apartments that I "wished" to live in some day... God reminded me that even if this event isn't "big" or a "prayer" to write it in my journal and share it with the world... (so here I am:)
He reminded me of these verses:"Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart."-Psalm 37:4 and "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you."-Matthew 7:7
I always wondered if I delighted in Him won't he fulfill all my desires... NOPE if these desires truly DELIGHT in him... or I can even go in deeper to say if it GLORIFIES HIM then those desires will be fulfilled. I prayed for sooo many things and I questioned this verse.. God if this is truly a desire of my heart why didn't I? or why did this happen..? Will the answer is simple... Was it to glorify myself or others or to glorify GOD....
I also wondered about the ASK, SEEK and KNOCK principle... What was that all about? Ask and it WILL be given... SEEK and you WILL find; Knock and it WILL be opened??? Well if you keep reading it talks about the Father providing for His children... I connect this principle to Matthew 6:33 "But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." First needs to understand what HIS will and HIS plan is then everything else will align.. I will get my hearts desires BECAUSE my desires align with HIS desires... How great.. right?? Well that's tricky because we are human and we have a sinful nature to look at this.. we=me... I looked at things like God why don't you just do it.. I know you can and you are able to.. so why don't you just... Well today God reminded me that it doesn't work the way "I" want it to work but rather if I align with the plan, vision and the purpose of God for HIS glory rather than my own I will be much more at peace with the situation... Man this is a great conviction to have.. Thank you Lord for this realization, understanding and CONVICTION..
MAY GOD BE THE GLORY IN EVERYTHING WE DO...
"All for His Kingdom"
ഓൾ ഫോര് ോഡ്സ് ിങ്ങ്ദൊം
(Check out the song above and below: both of these songs has ministered to my soul these past couple of days.."
Its been a while since I wrote a post! Through this "break" I got married to my wonderful husband, so now a pastors wife! I know very unusual to hear that from me... I promised myself I will never marry a pastor but boy God has a different plan and purpose for me. That story to come in later posts when I have more time...
Today as I sit at work I think back on His love and grace. We get soooo BUSY focusing on the things that are around us but we lack the focus on the big picture. That HE CONTROLS those things that are around us. I was listening to the song above and thought in those brokeness HE was the only one that never left me. Every one around us can fade and create bubbles in the relationship but NOT Him.. He continues the relationship even when we drift away from Him. I love to find him on my knees because thats when the hope, pain and my heart needs Him the most. When we are sooo happy in life and everything is content we don't value His love and grace.
Jeremiah 31:2-3 Thus says the LORD:”The people who survived the sword found grace in the wilderness; when Israel sought for rest, the LORD appeared to him from far away. I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have continued my faithfulness to you.
This verse provides amazing understanding of His love regardless of us drifting away...
I pray God talks to your heart and guides you to understanding that His way is better than our way and even if we drift away from His plan he will ALWAYS be faithful and never leave us to look for Him.
Get on your knees and you will find Him even in the desert place.
Hello all,
Today was very interesting and felt the need to share this..
It was mother and daughter day-soo shopping.. shopping and more shopping..We actually went to another city because we had to do some errands... We were on our way back but took a short cut (or what I thought was a short cut) as we were driving I saw a sign that said road ahead closed.. Well I kept driving and I completely ignored that sign. Then we hit the road block that said "Road Closed" and I was soo upset and thought only if we could bypass the sign... Took a turn to a residential area thinking I can go around the road and end up on the other side.. Well drove and drove circled around the whole residential area and we just ended up in either a dead end or a road closed sign.. At this point I didn't fill the gas tank so it was close to empty so I was upset that this happened. Well we kept driving thinking there had to be an opening somewhere.. Circled around for good 30 minutes. we literally got lost because all the houses started looking the same. Finally we asked for directions and they told us a way out and we ended up on the same road we came from and went straight back to where we ended up and went the route we accurately knew.
Why am I saying all this you ask? Well this is exactly how my life can be.. my stubborn personality lead to many different career changes and difficult road closed signs in my life that I ignored.. Even God gave me those warning signs before the actually road closed but I bypassed it and once He literally placed something blocking me to "my desires and destination" I still traveled aimlessly around for goood while trying to figure out my own desires and ignored what God was doing for me and through me.. What He wanted me to be I was completely ignoring.. But there came a day when I didn't have any choice to be taught what He really wanted me to do.. Who HE was making me to be.. I need to stop and listen to those warning signs before the road block sign that may cause danger or many difficult situations.. Listen to Him for He knows your destination and we don't have to try.. For HE HOLDS YOUR FUTURE :)
May God show you MANY many signs and may you UNDERSTAND those signs before things cause you to fall.. Trust in HIM.. He has everything planned for you for your good.. Not to harm you.. To give you a good future. to be successful..for your family.. your friends.. & importantly HIS KINGDOM.. Jeremiah 29:11
2 Very early on Sunday morning,[a] just at sunrise, they went to the tomb. 3 On the way they were asking each other, “Who will roll away the stone for us from the entrance to the tomb?” 4But as they arrived, they looked up and saw that the stone, which was very large, had already been rolled aside.
5 When they entered the tomb, they saw a young man clothed in a white robe sitting on the right side. The women were shocked, 6 but the angel said, “Don’t be alarmed. You are looking for Jesus of Nazareth,[b] who was crucified. He isn’t here! He is risen from the dead! Look, this is where they laid his body.
As I was reading this tonight.. I came across so many emotions and points that I honestly felt like blogging and sharing.. Before reading this blog.. Please read the reference above.. It will give you my insight to my madness ;)
The ladies approached the tomb with great sorrow-"who will roll away the stone??"
(The stone in today's language can mean our sadness, our pain, our weakness, our guilt, our worries, our sin, our wickedness, our wants, our problems, our situations... )
Recalling back, it wasn't just an ordinary morning, this was a Sunday morning. When you leave your worries, sadness, guilt, sin, wickedness and walk boldly into your destination.. into the sanctuary..into the tomb.. walking BOLDLY to see the unseen.. No tellin' who will be standing there to roll away the stone into the solution to the problem... to wash you clean from your sins, to give you a life of purity, a life of everything in your wildest dreams.. to give you a future... to give you destination that's ordained by our Creator.. No tellin' when we let Jesus roll away the stone-He was there.. He laid there in the sin, guilt, pain, wickedness.. He laid right there but you know what.. He has risen from all that to create a better place for us.. That is why.. That is why.. I can sit here and feel good about myself.. and feel complete.. Because He laid there... but He has also RISEN from there.. amen?
"at noon, darkness fell across the whole land until three o clock." Mark 15: 33 "and the curtain in the sanctuary of the Temple was torn in two from top to bottom. " Mark 15:38 "This all happened on Friday, the day of preparation. the day before the Sabbath. As evening approached.."-Mark 15: 42
Sitting here reading on a Friday evening, and understanding the amount of suffering my Father faced during a Friday just like today.. It amazes me.. Will I be there at the foot of the cross on a Friday..? will I sit there and feel His amazing love as He in front of my eyes died..? From the distractions of today's society if the generation had all the things that we have during the death of Jesus.... will you be at home.. in your bed watching shows that are degrading rather than watching the death of our Lord and Savior? Laying here in bed thinking of if I would be there is sick.. its pretty sad.. I'm unworthy to be at the foot of the cross but laying here not even thinking of what my Father has done for me.. Being tempted to watch t.v. than to read the word.. pretty sad on my behalf.. Thank God for a Father that regardless of our mistakes-without any judgement or any accusations to me.. Recalling that darkness fell across the whole land until three... Man at 12(noon) it's pretty sunny.. and we'll only feel darkness when it rains.. But it goes and comes with sun shining.. The whole land was dark till three.. Amazing.. He welcomes me again and again to sit at the foot of the cross to understand the cleansing of the cross.. to understand the depth of the cross.. to understand the reason for the cross.. just to understand who He is and who I'm NOT.. Just like the curtains were tore... Inside I should be torn.. He tore the boundary of the cross.. He tore it so I can come boldly, without any hesitation and come sit at the cross.. Even for a second.. Just to feel the love that He had for me when He picked up the cross for me.. What amazing love is this Father? that regardless of our busy schedule You continue to overwhelm us with Your constant invitation to the cross.. regardless if it's Friday, Saturday.. Monday whatever it is... It's amazing...That love He has for us.. constant.. unfailing.. unconditional.. it is amazing.. Thank You Father for thinking of me...
When we think of life, we think.. What will happen today.. or tmrw.. or the next day..
I don't know about you but I can only handle one day at a time.. But our God.. He can handle days, months, years and even decades at a time... Today I was thinking about all the craziness that's going on.. not only in my life but my family.. my friends.. They go through soo much mentally and physically-I just wish sometimes they can understand that nothing is worth it.. Sometimes I wish I was strong in faith that when going through adversities I can stand firm on His word.. But yeah I find myself questioning His knowledge and I fall many times.. So where can we get the power to stand firm? How do we stay focused on not worrying? Right when things get rough.. Right when you feel satan's push.. Push the prayer.. Push the power of prayer.. Give the struggle, situation or storm to him because He knows before it happens.. He has such a powerful peace to give you... He has such amazing wisdom to give you.. He has ALL the answers... Praise God that He loves me unconditionally to give me this peace and power.. I praise You in the storm.. For He makes ALL things beautiful... from ooglllay to beautiful JUST IN TIME>>>>:) Love the song below it relates sooo welll with this post ;)
