Hello ALL :) no title: Just my thoughts, babble and reflection

Hey ya'll,
Well another day of God created blessings, well today I am happy to say.. My best friend
Jubzy is graduating tmrw.. I AM SOOO FREAKING HAPPY at the same time SAD because
I won't be able to be there for her day :(. But God only knows how proud and amazed I am in the WOMAN she has become. Nooo joke yall she truly is my role model. Throughout these years I seen her so devoted to her passion even if she states other wise... I know the truth.. I don't have enough words to describe the love I have for her and how she changed me as a person. When she first went to Houston i rmbr
her getting stuck in the middle of the boonies and I was on the phone with her. OHH BOY i was scared, even if I was trying to calm her down it turned out to be the opposite. I never wanted her to leave but I know that this was God's divine will and no matter what IT WILL HAPPEN. Jubzy has been through a lot, I know maybe 1/2 of the full but one thing I keep recalling.. God makes everything beautiful in HIS time.. and guys not saying shes hurt or oooogallay---complete opposite she is beautiful inside and out.. But saying that all the nasty, dirty, ugly, awlful words*insert here* things she had to bare to come to this beautiful day which is her graduation day.
When I graduated I recalled all the moments i shared with people around me and rmbred her always calming me down. She was my balance to days when I feel cluttered(if you knew me then you would understand that was most days) but over everything around me I felt peace after talking to her. Graduation wasn't just about my accomplishments but people around me and their accomplishments as well. She keeps saying why am I thanking her during my graduation.. well it was because you deserved the most thank well aside from God of course.
Well Juby, I cant be there (OHHH I WISH I CUD BE,) but i want you to know I am imagining you walking across the stage with your degree that u WORKED HARD FOR !! and almost tripping hehe(had to through that in there) but I'm there praising God and loving Him for the beautiful WOMAN you become in Him.
He makes ALL things beautiful in His time.. This is your day-enjoy it.. taste it, smell it, love it... cause it'll prolly only last 10 minutes and then you'll be like me.. old, grey, and at home looking to go to grad school as SOOON AS POSSIBLE lol ;)
i love u and im not sure if you or anyone for that matter understood my rambling.. This is how i feel... now i gotta delete it ok thanks.. hehhe jk
love u my jubzzzzyy kutta ;)

HOW HE LOVES ME :)

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are, And how great Your affections are for me.

And oh, how He loves us so,
Oh how He loves us,
How He loves us all

We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If His grace is an ocean, we?re all sinking.
And Heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don?t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way?

Amen! Wow how he loves us... This song has really been on my mind... How He loves us.. Regardless of the situation-rough or not.. He still loves us and holds us in His arms for us to be surrounded by His love and glory. I was talking to this co-worker and introduced him to this song.. He fell IN LOVE!
If you asked me a month ago about Jesus I'll brush it off but the love He has given me this past month and the OVERWHELMING love... I can't keep silent..

Beautiful Exchange...

This song wow! it spoke to my friend and I drasically at this meeting we went to Thursday night.
The words are sooo powerful!
Taken from youtube.com/watch?v=6_89ysD9MME
You were near
Though I was distant
Disillusioned I was
Lost and insecure
Still mercy fought
For my attention
You were waiting at the door
Then I let you in
Trading your life
For my offenses
For my redemption
You carried all the blame
Breaking the curse
Of our condition
Perfection took our place
Chorus:
When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange
My burden erased
My life forgiven
There is nothing that could take this love away
And my only desire and sole ambition
Is to love you just the same
Chorus:
When only love could make a way
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange
When only love could break these chains
You gave your life in a beautiful exchange

Bridge:
Holy are you God
Holy is your name
With everything I’ve got
My heart will sing how I love you

Relationships

This word relationship is a very complex thing to explain better yet even feel. I was recalling in my head what this word really means to me with the certain individuals in my life to certain individuals that will come in my life. Relationship we have for our family for our friends and even for people we encounter each and every day... It's surprising to learn how that word can mean sooo many meanings to different individuals.
As I was reading I came across wait on the lord and you will rise like eagles.. I'm one of those I want the answers now so patiences is really hard for me to do. In this case of wanting a relationship that only God destined for me to have is very difficult for me to just wait. Yes, we may feel loney or unappreciated but we can only relay on the strength of God to get us through these negative emotions to some positive ones.
I also came to a blog that talked about relationships. The point of that blog was stop focusing on the "I want" relationships but rather the "God wants" relationships. This blog stated that once we have that relationship with God that fulfills us why do we need the closeness with anyone else. Which is sooo true, but i still think God i want someone that I can talk to about my day and talk about God to. Well He created Friends... Family.. this was my struggle daily.. But I'm thinking more intimately.. God says My time is not your time.. so wait and get fulfilled by me then everything else will line up. Amen.. We rush things and when we get it we wonder why we have it.. God makes us wait for us to appreciate it more once it's here.
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. Isaiah 40:31

I commit all my ways to You oh Lord.. The way He talks to us is unseen..

GOD IS IN CONTROL...

God Is In Control.. So things aren't going great.. But God still gives me the same peace that He gave Job when everything around him rejected him God is still in control and that is what i have to say in my head to actually know that I am taken care of.. I feel bad because i feel that peace should be automatically appear, No God never created us as automatic human being but rather with free will to come back to God at the end.. Can I get an Amen..?



As I study the word deeper in Mathew 16:24-28, That tells us if we hold on to our life here and the "great" things here... We will lose something greater who is our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. It's interesting we hold on to our jobs, cars, family, friends education and many of the things the WORLD offers us but we forget the most important thing GOD has offered and is offering us a bigger gift... BLOOD OF JESUS!!! Like I said couple of days ago.. I AM SOO UNWORTHY of the cross..  Actually this picture I got from online from an art work that was created portraying the shadow of the cross and how Baby Jesus was building something but all along God had a bigger plan for Him. We tend to work that way.. We work with the task at hand or what we see.. We forget what the shadow really is.. God You are soo worthy!! I feel just praising Him for that Amen! This painting has been on top of my sisters fireplace.. I never looked twice till pastor said something during service last Sunday. The shadow behind Him... mmm Praise God for already giving us a plan and will.. I was reading the Word and came across.. "The Spirit cannot guide us.. instead we have to ask the Spirit to lead us..." How powerful is that? I always look left and right and focus on my own goal and will.. Lord let Your Spirit control me and lead me in the way You want me to go.. "I'm coming back to the heart of worship, cuz it's all about You Jesus.."

I AM SO UNWORTHY!

Goooood Evening,
I'm currently at work waiting for visitations to be over...and thinking of how amazing God truly is to me.
Came back from India and getting back to the routine of things.. I miss the spiritual awakening there, here it feels like everyone is fighting at home for random things and never falls on God to complete their life...

As I'm sitting at work, I look at this painting online of the storm and the lighthouse.. There is someone sitting in the light house.. Makes me really think, we are all sitting in the storm when we are sitting on the rock of salvation. Translation: Our God is our light house and we are sitting on Him but we still focus on the storm(world).. Sometimes we just have to LET GO and LET GOD. That has been my testimony.. This is my first post on this site and I know God destined me to join for some reason and that reason will never be clear to me.. But it is clear to Him. Isn't He an amazing God... Even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death.. That's what I kept thinking about once I opened my eyes.. God is sooo wonderful.. I have bad days.. awful days. but God continues to give me that peace that He gave job..
I never know what is next for me in my life, but i know there is a God that will be right next to be all the way... Actually even in front of me... Please continue to pray for me so I may seek first His will and not my own and continue my race.. Let me know if I can do the same.. May God bless you and Keep you!