Its been a while..am I not enough?

I been wanting to write a blog for sooo long but I kept on being occupied with other things. I was sitting here thinking why not today. God has been so faithful and I keep asking God I want more.. I need more. I don't completely understand my selfish desires or wants but I know I WANT it.. Then He reminded me, Am I not enough? That is such a powerful question, is HE not enough that I look into the worldly desires of needing more.. Wake up, pray a simple pray "Lord help, guide... and so on" and then go through my day like usual.. AM I missing something? Nope... (my earthly desires says) but my spiritual desires says HECK YA you're missing A LOT more... I am missing the joy, love and peace that ONLY GOD can provide.. "Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Yes! Exactly this verse, we may get full with the worldly desires and wants... but that won't be enough.. We'll need more to continue living HIS way.. Yesterday I asked my husband why is it people that don't trust God they get everything and even more.. They get "lucky" with the simple desires of the world... WHY WHY WHY? He looked at me and said... "Their end is different then our end.." umm why does he have to to be soo smart lol such a GODLY thing to say.. I tease him saying thank you Pastor... But honestly that is true.. we focus sooo much on what others have and what we don't have... we lack the understanding of what is waiting for us... I know this blog may seem pointless and ALL over the place but these are some of my thoughts throughout the week.. I hope God shows each one of ya'll that read this that IT is NOTTTT about us BUT ALL about Him.. I pray that He opens our eyes to understand HIS plan and purposes. Prayer: Lord, I thank you for these "duhhhh" moments. Lord guide us the way YOU want us to go and not the way we want to go. Father thank You for the wonderful love and presence you have showered upon my life. Help me to feel the LOVE you have for me. Jesus I ask that you show me that it is NOT about me but ALL about You. Please take over every AREAS of my life, including the darkest points of my life that no one but you know about.. Create LIGHT out of that darkness... Help me to live for YOU alone... Jesus I ask all this in Your name. Amen!