It was Sunday...

Mark 16:2-6

New Living Translation (NLT)

² Very early on Sunday morning,^[a] just at sunrise, they went to the tomb. ³ On the way they were asking each other, “Who will roll away the stone for us from the entrance to the tomb?” ⁴But as they arrived, they looked up and saw that the stone, which was very large, had already been rolled aside.

 ⁵ When they entered the tomb, they saw a young man clothed in a white robe sitting on the right side. The women were shocked, ⁶ but the angel said, “Don’t be alarmed. You are looking for Jesus of Nazareth,^[b] who was crucified. He isn’t here! He is risen from the dead! Look, this is where they laid his body.

As I was reading this tonight.. I came across so many emotions and points that I honestly felt like blogging and sharing.. Before reading this blog.. Please read the reference above.. It will give you my insight to my madness ;) 

The ladies approached the tomb with great sorrow-"who will roll away the stone??" 

(The stone in today's language can mean our sadness, our pain, our weakness, our guilt, our worries, our sin, our wickedness, our wants, our problems, our situations... )

Recalling back, it wasn't just an ordinary morning, this was a Sunday morning. When you leave your worries, sadness, guilt, sin, wickedness and walk boldly into your destination.. into the sanctuary..into the tomb.. walking BOLDLY to see the unseen.. No tellin' who will be standing there to roll away the stone into the solution to the problem... to wash you clean from your sins, to give you a life of purity, a life of everything in your wildest dreams.. to give you a future... to give you destination that's ordained by our Creator.. No tellin' when we let Jesus roll away the stone-He was there.. He laid there in the sin, guilt, pain, wickedness.. He laid right there but you know what.. He has risen from all that to create a better place for us.. That is why.. That is why.. I can sit here and feel good about myself.. and feel complete.. Because He laid there... but He has also RISEN from there.. amen? 

and..It was Friday...

"at noon, darkness fell across the whole land until three o clock." Mark 15: 33
"and the curtain in the sanctuary of the Temple was torn in two from top to bottom. " Mark 15:38
"This all happened on Friday, the day of preparation. the day before the Sabbath. As evening approached.."-Mark 15: 42 


 Sitting here reading on a Friday evening, and understanding the amount of suffering my Father faced during a Friday just like today.. It amazes me.. Will I be there at the foot of the cross on a Friday..? will I sit there and feel His amazing love as He in front of my eyes died..? From the distractions of today's society if the generation had all the things that we have during the death of Jesus.... will you be at home.. in your bed watching shows that are degrading rather than watching the death of our Lord and Savior? Laying here in bed thinking of if I would be there is sick.. its pretty sad.. I'm unworthy to be at the foot of the cross but laying here not even thinking of what my Father has done for me.. Being tempted to watch t.v. than to read the word.. pretty sad on my behalf.. Thank God for a Father that regardless of our mistakes-without any judgement or any accusations to me.. Recalling that darkness fell across the whole land until three... Man at 12(noon) it's pretty sunny.. and we'll only feel darkness when it rains.. But it goes and comes with sun shining.. The whole land was dark till three.. Amazing.. He welcomes me again and again to sit at the foot of the cross to understand the cleansing of the cross.. to understand the depth of the cross.. to understand the reason for the cross.. just to understand who He is and who I'm NOT.. Just like the curtains were tore... Inside I should be torn.. He tore the boundary of the cross.. He tore it so I can come boldly, without any hesitation and come sit at the cross.. Even for a second.. Just to feel the love that He had for me when He picked up the cross for me.. What amazing love is this Father? that regardless of our busy schedule You continue to overwhelm us with Your constant invitation to the cross.. regardless if it's Friday, Saturday.. Monday whatever it is... It's amazing...That love He has for us.. constant.. unfailing.. unconditional.. it is amazing.. Thank You Father for thinking of me...


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Whatever happens, happens with His knowledge...

When we think of life, we think.. What will happen today.. or tmrw.. or the next day.. 

I don't know about you but I can only handle one day at a time.. But our God.. He can handle days, months, years and even decades at a time... Today I was thinking about all the craziness that's going on.. not only in my life but my family.. my friends.. They go through soo much mentally and physically-I just wish sometimes they can understand that nothing is worth it.. Sometimes I wish I was strong in faith that when going through adversities I can stand firm on His word.. But yeah I find myself questioning His knowledge and I fall many times.. So where can we get the power to stand firm? How do we stay focused on not worrying? Right when things get rough.. Right when you feel satan's push.. Push the prayer.. Push the power of prayer.. Give the struggle, situation or storm to him because He knows before it happens.. He has such a powerful peace to give you... He has such amazing wisdom to give you.. He has ALL the answers... Praise God that He loves me unconditionally to give me this peace and power.. I praise You in the storm.. For He makes ALL things beautiful... from ooglllay to beautiful JUST IN TIME>>>>:) Love the song below it relates sooo welll with this post ;) 

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Spirit Within

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John 14-Trinity{whole chapter---)
John 15-Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me.."




Today I randomly(God planted) thought of trinity{Father, Son and The Holy Spirit) How is it possible that ALL three can be one... I even had a discussion with my dad and we debated for some time.. --(God was strongly in the conversation that I literally felt Him standing next to me smiling at my crazy questions and thoughts.)-- OUR DISCUSSION: When multiple times it clearly mentions "Father" or even I will speak to God on your behalf--1 John 2:1... or who was Jesus speaking to as he was fasting for 40 days?--Matthew 4:2 or who did he ask to take this cup, yet not my will--Luke 22:42..? As we discussed this... my dad said read John 14-16... 


I started reading.. reading out loud and this discussion grew more and more intense but randomly a gentle spirit within me and within my papa changed to laughter.. It was impossible to stop laughing.. Nothing was really funny but the passion about the topic.. But God definitely intervened and said daughter you will never understand this... You will only understand when you see me.. It is NOT something you can back up with theories or research.. I am not a project that you can figure out.. I am, Who I am... Man just the way in the simplicity of life... stops you from living life and question something and speak to you in such a drastic way is beyond me.. We try to figure out answers to the questions of the world and life.. which is all really good.. But when we try to figure out God it will be IMPOSSIBLE.. because it only POSSIBLE through HIM and IN Him.. **confusion? yup it will be... but the only hope we have is that God was, God is and God will always be in control of our situations, our earthquakes, our financial situation, our relationships, our family, our EVERYTHING...was IN His hands, is IN His hands, will always be IN His hands.. 
So as we wait to figure out this mysterious answer to these questions.. the song above speaks soo much on what we should do as we wait....--patiently wait...move ahead bold and confident...I will worship.. Faithfully...


Praising Him for that!! Thank you God for showing yourself in ways that we can never control.. Thank you for being our God in every area... If situations were in my hands there will be no chance for me Father.. But since its IN Your hands.. I can sleep, I can worship...I can pray..I can sing, I can eat.. I can go to work/school, I can sit, I can watch, I can.. I can... I can... without worrying.. without struggling.. Alpha Omega... Amazing Father:) 

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Hello All,
So recalling the post before this where I was venting.... 

When things get low, why does it get lower? I have to push fwd. I have to push fwd. Satan has no victory in my life, my future. Lord I trust you to get me through all this.. Help me t fight this.. fight till I die for You appacha.. Mold me.. Make me.. Grow me.. I'm soo weak Jesus! I need your guidance and strength to overcome this difficult moment in my life. Education isn't going the way you want.. Relationships not going the way you want.. Financial not going the way you want.. Family not going the way you want... Just creates a way for His way to take importance.. Thank God not everything goes our way.. John 14:6 **Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."-

Well... I have some wonderful news... Let me not get ahead of myself.

During that point when I wrote everything above...

It was because a big battle was placed on me... Family situations were just overwhelming me..

It seemed like nothing was working for my good.. I struggled with understanding Gods will for this storm and why things were the way it was. I even found myself doubting the placements in my life. Satan planted so many doubts, fears, worries of not getting accepted to anything.. Just being stuck forever.. Well.. This was all after church last Sunday, keep in mind that I'm pending getting approved for MS program in counseling and development..The interview was done.. so just three weeks of fasting and prayers for Gods ultimate will in my life to take hold. (Flash back: This interview was intense... It consisted of a group interview, individual interview and an essay.. I know many individuals were more qualified for acceptance for this program.. Individuals that held previous MS degrees.. ) Now waiting for something is never a good thing until its received. So Monday rolled around and I was more discouraged and many negative thoughts were present in my head.. I didn't even think God would  love me after thinking many of these thoughts.. Continued to pray and keep up the faith that ALL things are possible through Him and nothing is done on my own merit.. Continued to have that faith of a mustard seed-even if it was soo small- Tuesday came around.. I heard a voice that said go online to application status and see what I have done for you... Went to the graduate school application status area... It stated "accepted on October 18,2011" A WEEK BEFORE.. A WHOLE WEEK BEFORE.. I was going through the storm and doubting my Father but He gave me an answer a WEEK in advance... Then I received my acceptance letter in the mail on Wednesday.. Even when I fell.. He was there holding me up and letting me know He's not done with me.. I'm beyond blessed to serve a God that is alive and working on my behalf.. "Jeremiah 29:11 seemed to re-play in my head over and over.. For He knows the plans for you.. Plans to give you a good future.. Plans NOT to harm you.. He is such a loving God.. He will never disappoint regardless if others around you have disappointed.. I find myself constantly going astray but that love..The LOVE of my Father just brings me back to Him.. Don't doubt Him.. He's still working on your behalf.. He's MORE than able to complete what He has in store for YOU for HIS glory.. 

May you fall into His arms of Love and continue to stay there-Feel His power all in your life even when you don't see the solution in front of you.. He already provided the answer... Just waiting for it to play out in your life.